*My Own Getaway*

10 days since my last post.

 

I have loads to do. Been so tired these few days. Have been sleeping at near midnight every night and waking up at 6 a.m.

Everytime I close my eyes to sleep, I think about all the work that needs to be done.

 

If I can't settle all these, how am I going to handle university?

I keep asking myself that. As a result, I shall not think of myself as pitiful anymore. This isnt bad, i'm just a bit busier than usual. It'll all calm down in a few weeks. =)

 

I've been eating a lot of snacks! I can't help it. I stop every few minutes thinking I should open my drawer (Which IS full of snacks. Shouldn't have stocked up last weekend)

Must look good for the Christmas dinners >.<

Still have to find a dress~ Will do that exeat weekend maybe?

It's kinda hard to find a knee length dress that I'd like. The pretty ones are always short!

 

Highlights of my days this week seems to be after tea. The moment where we're leaving Oakview but we don't seem to want to seperate and go back to our respective houses. It's fun. There's always someone hyper. =D

 

I'm getting sick of living in this environment. I'm currently reading a book and the first page has sex, the book has swear word in it. You switch on the tv, swear words everywhere. Sexual reference made in every possible moment. Rudeness to elders. Kids as young as 6 swearing at their parents and meaning it! I miss Brunei. Yes those things exist in Brunei too...but not as exposed as it is here. I support censorship to some extend. =)

 

Interesting. While they're doing all those stuff to select the men's cinderellas, I dont think there's any criteria requirement for prince charming except that he's a millionnaire.

 

Shall go to sleep now. My paragraphs dont flow. Sorry

 

*Is currently annoyed at her left ear* I had swimming for games today so I have water in my ear. I am now most certain that I can really float and i have to practise sinking/diving. I swam my first length today~! It was backstroke but still~ =D

 

Half term hols is over~ It was a nice one. I didnt go anywhere as I expected to but it's still fine. The first week was a bit bland since I had no girls to hang out with most of the time but I'm very grateful to the boys that brought me around.

 

Lesson 1 learned from half term: The girl is apparently the one that's supposed to decide things like what and where to eat/go in the relationship. Some boys are more than happy to just say 'I'm fine with whatever'

 

XP

 

I remember reading loads of books when I was younger that involved the characters living in boarding schools. I always thought half terms was just a day. I remember being confused on why some parents would go all the way to the school just to take their child out of the school, spend the day with them and send them back at the end of the day.  I concluded that the parents just missed their child. Happy thoughts

 

The thing about staying in Brunei hall is that you tend to come back to school feeling tired due to lack of sleep. My sleeping pattern was definitely messed up. I slept at 2-3 and woke up from a range of 8-11.30am. Depending if i want to catch breakfast in Brunei hall or not.

 

Yesterday night I also found out that I like brunei hall's bed more than the one in my room. Having my things around the edges of my bed is very convenient too. The privacy is very much appreciated though. Having roomates have it's perks. Especially helps in getting to know more Bruneian students.

 

One thing I liked about today: Oakview~ Lunch in oakview was a very much welcoming. I dont have to figure out what to eat and worry about how much my meal would cost! It is healthier too. I can't imagine next year with me having to cook for myself. I realised that I'd have to bring loads of dried chillies into UK. (can I do that?) haha

 

Random: I think I'm going to grow a habit of tying myself to my chair so that I remember to sit straight all the time.

Today is monday, i have one more week for half term.

I'm getting bored here. I'm going out today but i dont know where to go. Let's just go with the flow~

 

I can now officially say that I wont go 'Waaaa Why can't I shop???' since the last week i've been telling myself that I can shop and I did. Yay~

I bought 2 cardigans, 3 shirts (less than £20 for all. sale~) a beanie, 3 books, a mug, a frying pan (£0.99), ice cube moulds, 3 plain frames, 2 felts, 3 threads. (Not counting all the food)

Satisfied. haha. I just need some more material i.e. fleece and felt so i can start new craft projects~( I bought a book on how to make cute stuffs and how to make dolls from socks) I wish I bought my clays with me, I wouldve made loads of sweets by now.

 

I went to the MCM London Expo on Saturday. It's a nice experience =D I went with Huan Hui and Nabil . We were not in cosplay since we didnt have enough time to put together anything. I dont know much of the anime and mangga characters >.< I need to brush up for next year =D

Huan Hui said we have to cosplay or something..

 

Apparently cosplayers like to 'bully' people that wears normal clothes during these conventions. I was scared like 3 times. Well that's not that much but yeah. XD

 

I didnt bring my camera so we didnt take a lot of pictures. most of our pictures are blur

owh well. There's next year.

 

I have people watching Snow Prince with me~ we booked the tickets for the 21st already. 4 people with me. 2 guys. I'm not sure if they'll like it. lol

 

ICT coursework is not moving X_X. Must get motivated to do it!

 

 

It has been one week...

since i first started to lose my voice

since I started feeling unwell

since I did my laundry

since I started feeling too weak to...

                                                       fold my used clothes and put them away neatly

                                                       clean my room

                                                       make my bed

                                                       take care of my appearance

                                                       sit down and use my brain to do work

                                                       bother to talk and chat much with people

since people began to ask how I was feeling

 

One week till....

I'm expected to finish my ucas application (or at least my personal statement)

I'm expected to finish a section of ICT coursework

halfterm which means all the things i left this past week, i have to fit into this coming week.

 

Hello people~

I am now sick of people asking me how i feel since i dont even know what to answer

some of my answers were, good, okay, coping, miserable, just plain no(this doesnt make sense but people understood, etc

Everyone has been extremely nice

I didnt want other people to get it...

A lot of the other bruneians are now not feeling well too...

I know it has been circulating around the school but cant help that it's a bit of my fault. since they come to reckitt so often even though Nabil and I are ill.

 

Anyways...

In a positive side,

I can now taste food again which is a bless. Not being able to taste anything, just putting them in your mouth and chewing, feeling the texture and knowing it's supposed to be sweet, sour, etc but can really taste it is just... depressing.

My matron said i'm at the last stage of the illness which means, after i pass this stage, I'm all done, no more illness =D

my ict teachers have been very understanding about me coming to class being all sniff sniff cough blank stare. (I'm not sure how they'll react with finding out i havent done my second interview yet)

my maths teacher hasnt ask work the work set all week yet >.<

 

o.o

 

for a moment there I felt myself being stronger.

The feeling is quite nice. Like everything you're scared of temporarily ran away.

 

It's like I can see myself being alone in the future but I also know there'll still be people that I can talk to or fit temporarily in.

I didnt care what a person would be talking about me  when he/she meets their friends and decided to 'talk about it'

Someone being angry at me felt good.

I did also felt the need to appologize

but I couldnt make myself sound sorry enough.

Part of me thinks that it's not entirely my fault. 

 

Miscommunication sucks. They didnt get what I said, I didnt get what they said too.

So we're even

 

=]

 

It's like you're already in the toilet brushing your teeth before you're about to take a shower when someone comes in and goes straight into the last shower stall. You were already standing there with your towel and all.

sucks but you should've put your shampoos and all in that shower stall ready for you to wait.

It's that kind of two sided fault.