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    May 20

    Exams,long leave, activities

    I dont really remember what i have or havent told people in this blog ^^"
     
    Well, I'm taking swimming lessons in school now. Before going to lessons I've been whining and almost crying as I dont want to go to the swimming pool. Swimming? NOOOOOOO~! I DONT WANT TOO!!! MALASSS!!!
    Breast stroke (sp?) is hard... my legs keep doing the wrong thing >.<
    basically i'm finding swimming very tiring on the legs.
    I'm still scared of the water. When i just come in, i have to take time to tell myself to breathe but i'll be fine. Ganbatte!
    last lesson the instructor made me jump in around the 1.7m (or so) part. That's deeper than my whole height. the first time i jumped in, i felt like i was drowning. panicked and fighting for air until i remembered i should try to swim to the wall which was just like 1 m away >.<
    In the end i could jump and swim to the other end =D
     
    -interval. time to try a C2 past year paper-
     
    -back after an hour- it's a 1.5hr paper but yeah. finished and marked. careless mistakes like putting translation the other way round, using the wrong letter or number, etc. thats why i need the other half an hour to check in the real exam >.<
     
    The real exam is on Friday, AM.
     
    I have been revising physics this two days. Trying to get my head round the waves bit. I'm starting to understand so that's good. Physics is my priority right now since i really want to get an A here. and i'm not confident with the topics.
     
    I'm on study leave this week. However, I'm still in school. Study leave in school... it's like a normal school day where i have to go to registration, collect(assembly), etc but no classes.
     
    Long leave is this weekend. I've made a shopping list. necessities and all that i MUST get. Still adding things to the list thought. Since the cleaners got me my case yesterday, i've packed my clothes in. XD I even made a general half-term to bring list to make sure i have everything i need EVERY half term. hehe
    jobless ba~ ndakan blajar 24/7. ngalih dalam bilik saja. nada class. cleaners balik2 tanya. nda kluar bilik? ia kan vacuum bilik eka tapi eka dalam saja. NVM since i'm a very 'neat' person *rolls eyes* my floor doesnt need vacuuming yet. People keep saying my room is neat and tidy even when i think it's a lil bit messy. I've gotten the habit of being obsessed with the tidyness of my room in the mornings.
     
    this morning there was a house collect (assembly just with your house). Graham(housemaster) said he wants to make a party for the ones that recently had their bdays (me, Mark and morris. i think we're all 18s =D) I didnt know he knew. Graham bought the boarders two cakes yesterday. I had the chocolate cake. it' was yummy ( a bit too sweet for my liking though >.<)
     
    In the house collect, graham brought his baby. Sophia~!! She's ssooo adorable. too adorable >.< An another teacher brought her 1-ish year old son. During silence they both made cute noises and the lil boy just randomly waved at people going 'Bye~~' it was just too adorable. *flails over little kids*
     
    Last monday was Ifsha's drama exam. Melissa and I helped out with her technical stuff. I did  the lighting and music and I'm really proud of myself. hehe. It was so much fun running through everything finding out which light did which and all. I also watched the other plays (for the exam; other groups) They were all so great, especially this one group. However, it had a lot A LOT  of swear words and all but the choreography and synchronisation was awesome! I missed Azrin's play thought ._. because Ifsha's play came after his and I needed to help set up the stage and technical stuffs. I heard it was great and apparently one guy in his play caught all the female audience's attention. Imagine the play was going on at the left but all the girls were looking at the right where the guy (shirtless 6 packs as i heard) were. HAHA. Overall, helping with the play was a great experience. Ifsha got an A too. Congratulations!
     
    Reckitt turns 20 this coming tuesday~! Provided that the weather is good, we'll have barbeque and more cake~ (lol i'm getting loads of cake here. XD)
     
    I'll go to continue studying now~ lalala~
     
    To worried relatives and friends, dont worry, i am taking care of myself here. I know the Swine flu thing has gotten a lot of people worried but i will wash my hands as regularly as i can. Alhamdulilah, it's not really 'chaotic' about it here. =)
     
    May 13

    it's my birthday today. i'm 18

    you know there was a time some while ago that i thought that i'd cried so much in the past that i just couldnt cry anymore.

    Even when i was sad, i couldnt cry no matter how hard i tried. One of my friends even told me to think of as many sad things as i could to make me cry but i still couldnt. Today... the tears came down so fast i didnt have time to stop them from falling down my cheeks.

    Dont get me wrong, some are tears of joy but most of them are sadness.

    *deep breathe*
    It's my birthday today. I'm 18.

    2 sentences i just couldnt say since i woke up today.

    In the end a lot of people remembered or come to know as the day went on.

    I'm grateful to everyone who wished me. I'm suprised even the cleaners know.

    there's 5 people i know now that has the same birthday as me.

    I'm extremely grateful for the first person to remember and greet me today. That's for singing happy birthday.

    I forgot that it was hard. Celebrating a day like this when you're away from home. Gosh. I cried during mothers' day and that was a few days ago and i forgot?

    So basically i cried a lot today.

    I'm just a girl. A fragile little girl who turned 18 today. 18. that sounds like a milestone but i didnt get to celebrate it. But as my aunt said, the greetings today were my celebration.

    I started crying during break time today. Just suddenly started. All because of a cake that wasnt mine. Nearly chocked myself eating toast alone in my room looking out the window at the rain while crying. Luckily Roxana came and comfort me. After that i understood why i was crying so much.

    Every year for my birthday the most important thing was i get to celebrate with my family, people remembered and i had a cake.

    I didnt have 2 of them and some people who i even expected to maybe ring me up as soon as they could didnt. I'm glad alot of people remember but who i expected didnt. maybe they were busy... Some people didnt remember until dinner >.> the least person i thought would do that. but it's okay. he remembered in the end (after opening his hotmail)

    I spent  a long time webcamming and calling my mum and dad today.

    I got a parcel from them too. Thank you mama and ayah~ =D

    I'll try to be strong. insyallah. but not now.

    I just can't

    I got cake today. I attended Mark's birthday celebration downstairs just now. I ate his cake.

    Even if i have to wait 2 months. I will get my cake!

    *majal*

    Now if the tears will just stop rolling

     

    but i'll be fine in the end. I will

     

    May 10

    Mother's day

    Mother's day~! I wish I'm at home and can sneak a card into my mum's bedroom so that she can randomly find it. But no, I'm in England where they've celebrated mother's day last term.
     
    Today is Sunday. I went to Biceister Village yesterday for a Saturday Morning trip. 2 hours is not enough for me to shop! I end up not getting anything for myself. I did buy two t-shirt for my brother. Almost bought a bag last minute but decided not to due to some reasons not to be told. I'm so disappointed for not buying anything -_-"
     
    Oh! My HSJ DVD came on Friday =D 4 days earlier than expected! (it was expected to reach here on the 12th; 1 day before my birthday) So i watched it that night during quiet time. I used one of the tv room downstairs and cranked up the volume =D
    I'm disappointed that there were no 'flying' or serious acrobatic moves. Yuto's tap dancing was a bit rhythmless to me >.< But it was still a great concert especially the ending part. They had two encores XD Demanding fans~!
     
    Yesterday, Angus, Melissa and I cooked tom yam!( with cauliflower, lettuse, vercimelli, prawns and mussels) It turned out good. (To mee it didnt really taste like Tom yam even though we practically put 4 cubes of tomyam paste in it! but it was still okay. We forgot to put in salt too xD) People liked our soup =)
     
    It's a shame i couldnt taste the omelette Angus made.. Roxana used the same wok to cook pork few days ago so I couldnt taste it.
     
    We have sunday evening meeting later. *sigh* People say it's pointless. I'm not saying anything about it other than i dont want to go.
     
    Flowers~! (i felt guilty picking them earlier but I couldnt resist! >.<)
     
     
    I played around with my phone's camera and saw that one of the settings was panoramic so i thought i'd try it out. It takes 8 different pictures surrounding you and combines the picture together =D
    So he's my room. One slightly higer view than the other. and on the top pic, you can see my finger blocking the view of my bed ^^"
     
     
     
     
     
     
    May 06

    Voting~

     
     
    Kali nie, blog dalam melayu (rojak) sebab... saja.

    Voting~

    Kami tadi pagi ada voting tuk prefects next school year (sept.) So this few days busy la smua org bincang siapa dorang mau vote. 6th formers get 6 votes, the rest of the years get 3 votes. Important berabis ni decision kami. Salnya nda mau org yang sombong/obnoxious/racist jadi org org berkuasa di sekolah.
     
    Masa time memvote kan, masa house meeting. So dalam tempat yang ada house members saja. 6th form kena berdiri lagi sebelum tu shout out our name tuk others yang nda kenal kami. Angus duduk sebelah eka. Masa peek on his paper, namaku di circle~! which made me go 'What?!' (Eka takut plang kan jadi prefect tapi confident max votes pun kalau ada org memvote pun lah, 5 votes)
    Skali ia liat paper Eka, ada circle this chinese girl kawannya. Skali ia terliat! Trus ia kata ia lupa vote kawannya atu! Ia dah pilih 6 org dah. Lama ia liat papernya pastu toleh rah Eka. Katanya "Can i rub your name off? i really want Jain to be prefect" *hampaaaa~* Tapi buat2 nda kisah, encourage lagi ia tuk rub out the circle for my name. T_T
     
    Naveen vote for me~ 1 vote XD (at least ada~)

    Di luar rumah sitting at the table outside ada Eli, Angus ngan Archie. Dorang crita bising sampai dengar clearly dari bilik Eka so eka ke tingkap lambai dorang kejap. Trus2 c Archie triak "I voted for you! oh wait. I didnt" Tarus ia tapuk mukanya. *Hampa kali ke dua*
     
     
    Naveen best friend ku skarang. Dorang bukan kawan!
    Haha sekadar~
     
     
    I'm supposed to be revising right now. IcT mock tomorrow. 2 topic saja baru blajar (3 kalau dikira topic yang baru ckgu ajar) NOO~!
     
    Ntah kenapa hari ni Eka ngalih. Nak tido saja. Tadi di kelas physic lagi teruk ngantuk. cikgu go through test paper yang lalu (calculations mostly betul. explanation hancur~) tapi lama ckgu spend on calculation parts. Sampai kepala resting rah table dah. Ckgu sebut nama puji satu question ni Eka 'Opened his eyes to his mistake' barutah mata terbeliak.
     
    I got 60+ % saja for physic and chem tests~ :(
    M1 mock dapat 93% cos salah satu question ja which cost me 5 marks~ knapa question2nya basar banar markahnya? >.>
    May 05

    Exeat weekend~

    lalala~
    It's 9.30pm. Revising ICT
    This afternoon, my ICT teacher had wonderful news. I have an ICT mock this Thursday!
    -_-"
    Jia you! ganbatte! berusaha! fight~oh! work hard?!
     
    During my exeat last weekend (+extra May day bank holiday on monday) i had 2 days of free days and 1 work day~
    I finally watched Atashinchi no danshi ep 2~ I went to watch Hannah Montana the movie~ I watched Dodgeball the movie on tv at bhall with LP-ians(+Angus cos he came to visit~)
    I got to go to portabello market~! Love that place(maybe even more than camden BUT i never buy anything there. Should that count as a reason to love it? o.o)
    I ate Sushi, italian and malaysian~ Oh i got to eat mee kari~! <3. Went to Kareoke with LPans + Mar mar for a while =D
    I slept. (<----most important part!)
     
    This week is going to be busy~ First exam (ICT) in 10 days! *Freaks out*
     
    Found Kawaii Not livejournal from livejournal spotlight~ It's definitely kawaii~ XD
    Look at all the animated Icons~! Havent seen all but i love the 'You complete me' coffin one XD and the heart breaker~
    Look! :  http://www.kawaiinot.com/icons.php  (warning: 200 animated icons not for slow internet speed users)
     
    gtg back to ICT revision~ i'll stop at 10.15 though to get ready to bed.
     
     
     
     
    May 02

    english and makeup

    It's saturday morning and I woke up at 8. Seeing as i slept at 12+am I thought i'd wake up a lot later than that. waking up at 8 was not my intention >.>
    I am currently in Brunei Hall enjoying my exeat weekend which is extended a day due to May Day Bank Holiday ^_^
    Since I woke up earlier than everyone else, i went down from the bunk bed i'm in to the toilet to freshen up a bit brushing my teeth and all but did not take a shower just yet. Went back up to my bed and went on9. Stupid mistake. A predictable mistake since I knew this was going to happen but let it happen anyways. What i'm trying to say is right now i'm the 3rd person in queue for the toilet! being the first one to wake up but too lazy to call dibs for the toilet. >.>
     
    Oh well..
     
    This morning I've been reading blogs and community journals. I went to some of my friends' blogs and I realise most of them are getting really good in english (or have been great in it all along). Another thing I realise is that I'm starting to not remember the meaning of some words that I'm almost confident to say that I once comprehend. Which is bad. :O
    So from today to the coming future, I will be making a point to buy books and read to myself (out loud) with a dictionary next to me to retrieve the confidence I once had in this language called English. Why out loud? It's because my writing is far better than my actual oral.
     
    Anothing thing I'd like to talk about is makeup. I'm sure loads of girls love this colourful 'chemicals'. I do myself but I've realised some people who wear makeup so often look so 'weak' when they decide to go out without them. I would very much like to shout out that if they are so lazy to put on their usual amout of makeup, make a point to at least put some powder and eyeliner on. That is what I myself has believed and picked up since young. I know I sound unfair and a bit cruel there but I can't help it >.< It makes me think that I should go back to wearing none at all since I am afraid people would think the same way as I do when I go about not wearing it. Although I think i dont look much different since i wear no heavy make up at all. Just the daily powder, eyeliner and lip balm to satisfy myself.
    Even so...There are some people that I think look so much better without makeup. They are lucky creatures indeed.
    Should we let ourselves be so dependent on this cover ups?
     
    pointless rant. lalalala~~~
     
    I have forgotten to bring my headphones. In result, i cannot freely watch dramas this weekend. Nooooo!
    *is tempted to buy a new cheap headphone to satisfy weekend need*
    Should I? My white ipod one isnt that well now anyways. You can see the wires inside and have to push them back in often.
     
    why do I feel like I'm using such formal english in my own blog? there's probably loads of errors in it. >.<