the hype is scarier than the real things as one said.

Everyone around me and in brunei are getting paranoid/concerned/bothered by the whole swine flu thing.

yes i'm aware that everyone is a bit of an overstatement but yeah

 

I cant say that i'm not scared. I am but as far as i know it's not really deadly unless you have a week immune system or something like that. A lot of people have recovered from it.

All this thinking has also lead me to once conclude that it's the same as normal flu. It's very bad for you if your fever goes sky high. For swine flu the same thing happens.

for now i prefer to stay in the middle. That imaginary line that I can see.

another question is... Does face mask really help? it gets damp after a while doesnt it? Water vapour from breath and all. if so that's not really good. but i do acknowledge that we should get as much protection as posible.

 

no worries everyone~ i'm fine. Will be back in brunei on the 5th and i will quarantine myself for a week. if possible >.<

 

Approaching the last few days of school... everything is slowing down. Everyone's lethargic no mood for studies~

Today was actually sports day for LP

students no involved still had to go to classes XD

I joined Javelin~ I sucked :P

but i tried~ and tried~ until i was able to register a mark of 6m (less than half of the others' 15.Xm marks)

but what the heck. i tried~

 

Then there was the case of not enough girls for the 100x4 relay since none of the girls wanted to do it (the sporty senior girls in our house are either upper six-ers that have left or has gone on a trip) so yeah. we were left with the oh no! i'm not running! girls (incl. me) So the girls retreated into the house since the house was then unlocked leaving 3 senior girls in the field. The other girls didnt care but i was so restless in my room that i ran out and go to the field and asked if the relay has started. but luckily.. not yet. So i went to find them just to find that our house have dropped out of the event cos they only had 2 girls. including me that's 3 so it didnt help either so we just... went back to the house. Way to spoil my heroic day dream. Eka to the rescue~ haha

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bleh. it's a saturday and i woke up at 6am -_-" Just one of those days that you.. just had to wake up and get out of bed even though you actually wanted to sleep more. Get it? no. I dont really get it either.

 

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Okay. I'm not feeling well... that's why >.<

 

Anyways... my laptop which has been going a bit wonky this recent month has decided it had enough

So without hesitation, i happily performed the surgery. It didnt take that long. Thanks to backups. i didnt lose that much. Just some stuff in my C drive... like pictures. Thank goodness i kept most of my files in D drive or my external hard disk.

Anyways. I'm in the process of redownloading necessary programs like yahoo and msn. Just the basic ones. Will download the rest back in brunei.

Now wishes that i keep setup files too >.<

 

Packing is so troublesome. Especially when you see everyone else just throw things in. I on the other hand 'feels' around the bag and look for empty corner and go around the room for something that would probably fit, squeeze it down to the location and try to fit it nicely >.< Cardboard boxes has been banned. So i have to make full use of the bags and plastic containers!

 

And since i still have a week. i cant decide which ones i definitely wont need this week!

 

I went to Bath university open day. I like the university, it's structure and the feeling there.I'm not too sure about the course though. Will try to go to other uni open days. Wanted to go to the Southampton one but stupid me didnt book earlier now it's all full. Boo~! will have to go to the 5th of september one *books now*

 

swine flu.. everyone's worried. So it makes me worried. What i'm especially worried about is going home. A probability of someone not feeling well in the flight and everyone being quarantined is quite high i think >.<

 

Going to windsor later for saturday trip~ I dont really fancy going into the castle again but if everyone's going them i guess i'll have to.

 

 

 

 

 

Everyday it feels like the next day is a holiday but everytime you wake up, you have to get ready for school. Everyday you find people leaving school and the number of people decreasing. *sigh*

 

What have I done this week. Presentations in ICT classes. More presentations to be made this week. I went for a chemistry masterclass on spectroscopy in Reading University, I played tennis for the first time and swam after that. I went to the cinema and watched transformers ROTF.

 

presentations: bleh. work must be done, speeches must be given. Class is much more friendlier since we've been together for almost a year

Chem masterclass: Actually seeing the instruments-cool, talks-boring,worksheet-interesting challenge, why chem in uni presentation - .....

Tennis: I stink with both hands. Cant do a proper racket swing. See no difference when demonstrated. Took someone tens of time till I finally see it. Sorry and thank you~

Swimming: it was okay. Swimming back and forth, back and forth. I can do the back thing without a floatie =D

Transformers: AWESOME! some parts were '-_-" this need not be in there' but the effects were awesome!

 

Weekend: Went to one of the oldest meeting of worship house in south london (in Jordans village) Definitely a once in your two years here thing. Dont think i want to go again next year. It was okay though. Friendly people somewhat interesting history. The religious aspect and the grave was the uncomfortable thing.

 

Decided not to go to London this week. Thought would go next week but there's Windsor trip and Graham's paying for trip AND food so i think i'll go there instead. I keep thinking of Swindon when someone says Windsor (well they both have WIN XD)

 

Need to start packing! Need to find a client for ICT coursework! Anyone wants me to built a specific (basic) database for ease their everyday job? Pleaassee tell me else i'd have to find a teacher in school.

 

Should I go home this December?

 

I still have no news about attachment! will turn desperate soon.

 

 

-Blog stops here unless want to read fangirl part-

 

HSJ news: Ryutaro has a creepy fanboy stalker that stole his phone(now arrested), Yabu got a drama role and a LEAD stage play role! Hikaru's has a drama role. It's Inoo's bday~ that's all i know. Yamada and chinen are doing the whole NYC Boys, inoo's in uni, ryutaro's in the new (well that's not happy news but yeah ^_^"), Hikaru and Yabu are acting, Keito can be found in Hyakushiki, Takaki's still busy with Gokusen movie promotion and all, what bout Daiki and Yuto? (funny how i rule out Inoo just because he's in Uni and assumed he'll be busier than the others? When for all i know, he might be the one with most free time)

 

First of, today is Azrin's bday =D he seemed pretty happy about it.  He even got a big,1/2 of the eating area, diners singing happy birthday for him. I wish him the best =D (+ he had 2 presentations to give during ICT. He did great like he usually did. mine was far from his ^_^"

There's been loads of bdays eh? Loads of bdays in May and June. Happy blated birthday to Peng, Hazim, Hareef. there's loads more to come eh? >.<

 

It was hichan's bday to. Happy bday~! I already greeted her and she rarely reads this anyways :P Cheer up though. There's nothing wrong with you. One of the cutest girls i know.

 

Back to the title. Decisions, decisions...

I have to start thinking and drafting my UCAS applications. Go to open days... Pick subjects for next year. To continue? to drop? if so.. which one? I need my results first before answering this :\ Sadly, we have to decide this week so that the teachers can make time slot timetable that fits and doesnt overlaps for anyone. I'm not sure i can cope with all 4 subjects in the 2nd year. I mean i'm not sure i can get a good target grade by the end of the day. I may well be able to go through the year but 4Bs in the end is not...great. I already feel slightly incapable since i compared my grades with the boys. I need to work more. I know i shouldnt compare but yeah..

 

For universities. we had a period today where teachers gathered and talked to the whole L6 bout the ucas process and all. by the end of the period, i can say most of us are scared. I'm scared and slightly thrown off my own plan. I need to reconsider some things and talk to my tutor. One thing is.. i dont want to take an IELTS exam. Last year my senior had to take it as they didnt acknowledge the BCGCE O level english for her course or something o.O

 

Open days..  i know to which ones i want to go to and i've booked myself to talks in one of them. The only thing is that I'm going alone. Part of me is slightly thrilled about the challenge of having to go by bus to town by myself, catch a specific train (i've never taken one. my tickets were always open routes that i can take anytime that day) and catch this unknown bus from that unknown station to this university. The other part is ofcourse scared. Anyone wants to go to Bath open day?? One of the boys wants to go but he's going from London and it's a lot cheaper for me to go from my school.

 

Another open day, southampton happens to be in the last day of school. Which means i have to leave school the day before. That means going to brunei hall with my things to bring to brunei. Unfortunately... i have a box to bring with me which results to fact that i cant use the train. That means i have to use a taxi to brunei hall! that means i have to take a taxi alone! After school! okay so it will still be bright since it's summer and all but still... another challenge. >.<

 

Despite everything... I'm reading a book XD It's ages since i've read a book and i bought this book also ages ago. It's jolly good that i started reading it. I'm starting to like this author (even though this is just the 2nd book of hers that i've read) there's unexpected twists to the story and it never goes how it convincingly suggested)

 

back to reading~ tomorrow i have a half day so i feel relaxed. After that, it's weekend! I need to shop for Brunei and to something for me to put my things in since i dont have boxes for the summer( we need to clear out rooms~). I might just buy another luggage bag. We'll see..

 

                   

Yes i'm completely aware i have not updated this blog. Lets take it as an uninformed Hiatus shall we? Since I had exams and all.

well exams are over~! and i went to Thorpe Park! (it's an amusement park. was a school trip) We were given like 7 hours there.

It was awesome! (says me who havent gone to an amusement park for so long. some of them were like 'this park is not that good')

I went on 3 rollercoasters~ A kiddy one which i'd say like a small version of pony express in JP, one that was indoors and gone backwards in the dark and one big one with loops and turn-me-arounds. XD

I went on several rides that took me high up in the air and spun me. the vortex, zodiac and quantum. scary names arent they? haha

got bus sick on bus ride back. in the end of the day i was weak when i closed my eyes, i can feel myself being thrown in the air.

 

I'm fine today!

Today was sunday. didnt go to town though. stayed in. made porridge due to lousy 'brunch', cleared up plates and mugs that was piling in the common room. was tempted to print a paper saying 'Cleaning after yourselfs means cleaning your plates and mugs as well as your body' but decided not to. picked up the kuacis on the floor. watched a drama had sunday evening meeting (talk about religion D:)

 

What's with everyone feeling fat nowadays? Everyone's counting calories, skipping meals, eating barely anything, complaining how fat they are (when they're so thin >.>), 'cleaning their liver', etc. Even the ones that was several months ago 'yay! i'm getting chubbier' is all 'i'm dieting' you've got to be f******* kidding me. you wanted the fats at the first place and started eating alot. now you're complaining? If i dont hear anything like 'i should be dieting i shouldnt be eating this'. 'i NEEEED to lose weight', etc everyday this week, i'll get a 100 quid(pounds)!

 

*sigh* i feel fat cos the skinnier ones are complaining they're fat. if they're fat, i'm a whale! >.> but i remain my stand of not dieting even though i dont like how i weigh. I just need to know when to stop eating. i wont go 'meat twice a week'

 

I dont know why but i get irked by people's behaviour everyday. It's like i want to scream at them an shout out that they're being childish, foolish, etc. but i stop myself cos i'm afraid of people saying i'm no better. I know i'm not better but seriously why am i viewing everyone's actions as immature these days?

 

*Changes topics* I want to go to uni open days but i'm scared to wander into an unknown place alone. Why is there no one else taking computer science! Some of the universities offer different days for different departments.

 

It's cold these few days. There's no heaters too since it's supposed to be already summer so we feel it's colder.

 

mum read me teacher's comments about me when we were video calling. basically I have little confidence in my knowledge. only once i'm brave enough do I raise my hand to ask a question or answer one. I need to grow more confident in life! i have one more year! fight!

 

n I'm starting to lurk more and more on lolita sites and communities.