o.o

 

for a moment there I felt myself being stronger.

The feeling is quite nice. Like everything you're scared of temporarily ran away.

 

It's like I can see myself being alone in the future but I also know there'll still be people that I can talk to or fit temporarily in.

I didnt care what a person would be talking about me  when he/she meets their friends and decided to 'talk about it'

Someone being angry at me felt good.

I did also felt the need to appologize

but I couldnt make myself sound sorry enough.

Part of me thinks that it's not entirely my fault. 

 

Miscommunication sucks. They didnt get what I said, I didnt get what they said too.

So we're even

 

=]

 

It's like you're already in the toilet brushing your teeth before you're about to take a shower when someone comes in and goes straight into the last shower stall. You were already standing there with your towel and all.

sucks but you should've put your shampoos and all in that shower stall ready for you to wait.

It's that kind of two sided fault.

 

 

Funny...

 

How I say something and people say it's completely rude... (when i meant it in a good way)

 

Funny...

 

how people seems to be talking to me with all the gestures as if they're saying something to cheer me up when they're just pointing the facts of why i was down in the first place

 

Funny...

 

How I just can't be bother.

 

 

Ganbatte! - Yoroshiku ne?

 

Funny...

 

How there no sensible equivalent for it in english or malay.

Something that you can just say, can mean a lot of things but you just get it when it's used. Appropriate

 

I'm Youtubing Hari raya (eidulfitr) right now~ XD

 

 

 

My first taste of raya this year was... during the summer during work experience when the technician youtubed hari raya songs to check that the internet is working well. That was nice =D

 

Before going back to UK i got to play a lil bunga api with cousins =D

 

I have to say... It's not how I would have spent raya in Brunei but I'm satisfied with what I get this year. Alhamdullilah.

 

Us Bruneian LP-ians celebrated Eid on friday night. Raya is on Sunday. HAHA

It was the best time to do it *cheers to Farid and Rahman for organising an open house that day* =D

We all went to grove in traditional clothes and had biscuits and cakes and crackers and loads of fizzy drinks.

And low volumed raya songs playing in the backgrounds

 

Some of us went to London the next day. Farid and Naveen printed out copies of this group photo of us in Boots at paddington station. I LOVE THE PICTURE. It just makes me smile when I stare at it.

Sadly i dont have a digital version of it now so I cant share it here.

But here's some of the few pics that I actually took that night (was lazy to be holding the camera all the time)

One of our junior couldnt be there that night so we webcammed with her.

 

Next week is exeat~! Hopefully there'll be some raya celebration then too. =D

But... No Erwan and Maryam ;_;

Hope they had fun this weekend in London celebrating the first two days of raya.

 

To new A'level scholars this year, it's probably new to you all. Hope you all take it all in a good way. It's hard the first year.

To wxcked Sc. hope you all have a blast this year. Bunga api dah?

Is on  study period now. Shhh~~

I have maths later. >.<

well i just wanted to update for today

Went to London last weekend.

Dah bayar zakat so yay~

this morning I complete a small project of mine. really small XD

Here's the story, I bought these cute little pegs (red fruit ones) while I was in Thailand. (Why? cos they're cute and I wanted some XD)

I brought them to UK.

After I finished unpacking... I found that I didnt really had any use for them.

So i kept them in my drawer

After I finished putting up some stuff on my walls to reduce the empty feeling~

I realised that my teapot/cupcakes hanging pegs were exactly the same as my little pegs. Just that they were bigger and strung together.

So.. I decided to turn my little ones to mini versions~

So I used a white sewing tread and connected the pegs 3 times:

And left if on top of my desk for a few days...

Yesterday, I was feeling very very bored and didnt want to do my prep.

So.. I decided to play with some clay and make the sides of the hanging pegs. (I'm making up names for this thing. I dont know what they're really called)

So voila~

And I left them again and finally went on with my prep.

this  morning: As the clay are now dry~ I poked needles through them to make a hole, Used the needle to thread the threads through... And we have little version~!

 

Oh and my wall of photos (and timetable):

 

must go back to actual work. bye bye~

 

(pictures taken from webcam and lousy laptop handling ^_^V)

Hello people~ i'm back in school now.

1 thing i forgot to bring back to uk with me: my nokia 6111 phone which has my O2 sim card. hoho -_-"

I'm having my mum post the sim to me. Right now I'm using another 02 sim that i have so it's all cool. Especially since this one has free internet. XD

 

Well i'm back in UK. I was feeling really cold for the first few days. What with the strong wind and all. Today is sun shiny bright~ Feels like summer again.

so.. How's everything so far?

the usuals. I'm readjusting myself to the shock of being with all these people in school. Everyone is so....  good in something that i feel so small.

 

I'm taking just 3 subjects now and suddenly i feel that i have too many free. The real challenge now is to actually study in these study periods.

 

....

 

there's nothing in my mind that i'd like to say right now.

Everyday is filled with normal classes, awkwardness with people and self& missing my family.

 

I'll be fine~!

 

 

XD