Today mum,sis and I decided to go ahead with baking the cupcake using an old cupcake recipe(one that some wxckedsc-ers should remember) that we have rather than trying a new one. We just stole two icing recipes from the new recipes =D

I have to say.. It took us quite a long time to make em. An even longer time to decorate them( which was the fun bit). Here are some pics of the results:


Well that's all of them =D
As for the taste.... *shrug* Kita tunggu buka puasa dulu. XD
Have been making some fake sweets before... making real one feels good.

Oh btw...did I say I made brownies yesterday??
Well that didn't really work well. Kurang tepung maybe sal dalamnya tak masak2 -_-" cair~

when i said that i made roses yesterday.. they're tiny ones. just to clear that. Here they are~

First of all.. I wish everyone have a good fasting month. Hope we all become a better person after this holy month.

What did I do today at home since I can't eat to kill time?
Lets see...
I made more clay roses. You can say I didnt really use my time that well since i only managed to do 3 red,3 yellow and 3 black ones.
Hmm... Next I shall make 3 white ones ^^

I decided to watch Futatsu no Spica. Why? I've been delaying watching this since the first episode was subbed. Yesterday, I realised that the main actress is the girl from Koishite Akuma. I think she's pretty~ (What? I cant help judging a show by it's actor/actress. It's how I learn about more actors and discover more awesome storylines =D) It's a story about a girl who has a dream of being an astronaut. One drawback is that everyone speaks a whole lot of things in such short time!@_@ I have to keep up reading the subtitles . I want to be able to really see everyone's expressions too so I repeat some scenes several times.

Today is Saturday. I made brownies =D (something I've put off since the beginning of summer hols) I seriously need to try making more 'elegant/complicated' things. Like pretty cupcakes for example. Me and my sis wanted to make some this afternoon but we didnt have enough materials and kinda just gave up on the idea ^^"

I have like 5 more days of work and then I'm done. After that.. it's just a matter of days till I go back to UK. I want to at least have made more maccaroons and tried to make clay ice creams scoops before I go back. More fake cupcakes too. A lot of sweet things that no one can eat but drool on. haha

AS grades are out. Overall I think it's safe to say that I managed to get A in maths and physics while B in ICT and Chem. Abit disappointed at the 2 Bs especially on the phone when the receptionist have been reading out A for all modules before she started on the B. Wish she had done it the other way round XD
I still dont know if I should drop ICT or Chem. They both have their pros and cons. sigh. decisions decisions

By the way.. any scholars that happen to read this entry...can you please answer one question for me? Zakat bayar di London before we go to our respective schools lah tu kan? like last year is it?

Don't you feel the pressure of not being able to let some things out. Like the internet is a free 'world' but you just know there's someone out there that might stumble here and would think what you're about to write is inappropriate? Or the fact that what you put on the internet is like putting it up for eternal life (sure you can delete things but there'll always be fingerprints left behind.. I feel like you deep dark past would be able to haunt you in your future.
The pressure of turning your tone the opposite to your feelings because you know nothing will come out of saying things negatively but once you've finished the process of scrapping every last bit of possitivity out to what you think as pleasing to people, you're left to ponder whether you believed in what you just said or choose to reminace in the leftovers and choose the dark side. then you start to struggle to balance both sides to remain neutral. You're also left pushing the regret of not saying what you initially wanted out and get it over with.

*sigh*
I guess those who speak their minds won't ever feel this way.

Always try hard to please the people and never upset or disgrace them in any possible way or the opposite. I hope to find that find line in between.

Attempts to make fraud cakes, cupcakes and what i do with leftovers. hehe

(These's aren't all the pictures)

Since I started exploration on deco and my mum's new found fraud cake interest, I'm able to start newer projects =D
(I lost interest in the hats. lol Will wait if someone buys them then maybe make more XD)
So me and my mum set of in our new adventure and these are some of what we came up with =D





credits to dad for instructions and tools (and for cutting the cup cake bases). Mum for guidance and ideas
(the silicon smell is dreadful btw. I'm taking a break from all the cake piping stuff to clear my lungs' trauma.)

Well after all that, I had some bit of silicon left in the piping bag so I played around with it. Here's two of what I did (decided to use what i've done in clay since I wasn't using them yet)

I've always taught of myself as someone that grew up too fast when I was young. In terms of thinking.. worries of money, live, work, etc came to my mind very early. People said I look serious all the time. I tell them its just my natural face expression and I was probably daydreaming. (Which are both true) but to some extend I know they were right. I just can't help it.

Since I got a chance to study in UK and 'analyse' some of their culture/ways of living, I feel very blessed to have been brought up the way my parents did. Sure I may still think that my kiddie shampoos and toothpaste were replaced with adult ones too early in my life but I like the fact that I was encouraged to wash up my own plate and help around the house since young. I knew I did have a few maids when I was younger but I do remember doing some work myself. Just watching how some teenagers behave like they've never really cleaned anything by themselves is just... sad.

So I worry about things too much? I just have to loosen up a bit.

Another thing is the prospect of having fun (this is not my intention of this post but I'm sidetracking a bit. just bare with me) What I see in my school is that having fun involves loud music, alcohol and boy/girl interactions. Sure jumping up and down on the dance floor to the music is somewhat fun but it is somewhat pointless. Sitting down in a room playing card games with friend(or even teachers) is much more entertaining.I don't see the point. sorry.

Anyways..staying on topic..

acting my age...

to this day I'm still in disbelieve everytime I say 'I'm 18' It's surreal to me because I don't see myself as an adult yet. Sure I did some amount of being independent while I was in UK but back at home this summer, I turned back into a very clingy kid to my mum staring at her for approval or guidance on any question that comes my way.

I don't want to be 18 yet. It's one of the reason I didn't try to learn to drive this summer. Starting to drive seemed to me as giving up my childhood and accepting adulthood.

The way I dress myself... as my friends and family know, I am an avid fan of 'Asian fashion'

I laughed inside during the IPA juniors orientation when the speaker told them to buy all their clothes in UK since the designs are much better (okay i know it's true but not for me. I prefer buying my clothes in SEA since I like the designs more.

A few days ago I asked my mum if I could try buy lolita clothes (like casual lolita and not over the top like some othe styles). Like my mum answered I can buy them with my own money why ask? I guess I just felt the need to ask anyways. However I do realise that dressing up like little dolls would come with severe weird glances and opinions from people. (I don't think I can pull it off anyways) Plus, since I'm starting to realise that I am indeed now 18 and feels like I passed the age range to be big in something if I was meant to be big in anything at all, I have mixed feelings about the way I dress now.

Reflecting in my style in school (where I arrived in boyish short hair with a dress that looked like a little girl's and continued on everyday with blazers different and not form fitting like the other girls') I do feel out of place sometimes. (I am more depressed about my appearance this coming year since my seniors [whom fashion senses I adored], Charmaine and Mirei are leaving [they all had different but 'cute' fashion style])  I'll try to appear as my age a bit more from now on..

I may change my mind later. We'll see. XP

at a point of feeling like a lil kid playing with playdoh.
*sigh*
headache of thinking bout my non existence work experience

Supper duper old other cake pics:


I LOVE THE BACKGROUND. *Is in love with own house* haha

Had a WxckedSc gathering yesterday at my house. Us 'UK-ians' were the organisers. Since it was at my house it felt like my party. You know, cleaning the house having everything ready. Grateful that my parents are easygoing and was willing to help a lot =D Also greatful for friends that help clear up =)
Pics are up in facebook~

It is still hazy! *sigh* nothing we can do bout it... except scold the people if they still think they can burn things outside.

It's nearly the middle of my summer holidays. I dont want to go back to school~! But I just have to face that. hehe. Here's some new and old pics taken this first half of my first summer holiday~

Since I came back from Thailand, as i probably have mentioned before, I've been doing some craft~
like decorating straw hats. The first pic is a hat my dad decorated, I'm just wearing it for fun. The next two are my designs XD They're not perfect but yeah. I'm supposed to do more but I currently have no idea.


Other than hats, I've been playing with clay(Amos light ones)~ Getting used to handling the sticky glue like substance. haha. Below is an overly pink with purple+pink cream maccaroon surrounded by blueberries~ XD


Below is a pic of me feeding my grandparent's goats with bread.


As I promised myself. I have belated birthday cakes! Two infact. Both tiramisu~ my fav. Below is one of them. This one unfortunately was left in the fridge while my family and I went to Thailand, so it became dry after we came back. The first pic shows the cake when I opened it. There's already a crack :O The second is the cake after i kinda flatten it (cut a piece and find that tiramisu doesnt last long. It was sour already XP so i decided to flatten it before i throw it out cos I can never flatten or harm a perfectly good cake). Pic of my other cake is in another camera. This pc has no memory card slot.


Below pictures are just me vaining infront of my dressing table.

Necklaces I bought in Bangkok~ Instead of going crazy over bracelets/bangles, I went necklace hunting instead~


That's all for today. Tomorrow I'm off to bandar to attend the new scholar's orientation~ Curious bout what my juniors would be like. I dont even know how many of them are sent yet!

Wow it's almost 3 weeks...
yet eka belum lapor diri

What have i done?
Nothing... I've been very very lazy.
So lazy that i dont feel like changing my clothes when i need to go out. I feel too lazy to dress up.
I havent worked on my personal statement which i was supposed to hand in at the start of holidays.
I havent redo the coursework first page that i did but didnt hand in and accidentally left it in the school network.
Heck, i feel lazy writing this entry.
I was supposed to put pics in this entry. quiet a number but i'm lazy to take them out of the camera's memory card and transfer it between computers (or another alternative is to find the cable for the camera to the pc but that requires work too)

This just cannot do.

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Let the stories flow~

I'm starting to feel like i've been dreaming about the same topics for a while now.
Yesterday's dream involves school, packing, losing my case, and strange staircases that in the end i get so scared of falling.
These are regular topics. Sigh. The staircase part, i actually knew i was dreaming and even told myself i could just fall and wont feel it but then somehow i was still scared and still wanted to go along with the storyline.

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I was in Bangkok last weekend.
Lots of shopping as usual. That's how my family spends our holidays. Shop till your feet hurts. XD
Mum bought loads of bases, paint, flowers to make country decorations.
Crafts make me happy~~
I bought loads of bags =D


Interesting finds while there:
I found an angelic pretty parasol being sold~ Obviously a replica. It was sold by Codec in the Paragon department store in Siam Paragon. When i saw the umbrella i thought the umbrella looked loliable and saw the design up close and it had angelic pretty all over it. The piano one. I dont know names of prints yet >.<
A whole kinokuniya store that didnt have a japanese section
People dancing awfully. The style resembles shuffling but I wasnt sure if that was what they were aiming to do o.O

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I'm currently watching Pi.Li.MIT on Astro~ been wanting to watch that drama since the time they were still filming it but never got to stream it while was in UK. I see Chinen everytime I see Aaron. Its the way he moves and stares.. >.< hard to explain
It's not a scary story but for me it's dark enough to make me scared.

I just bought Ghost Friends. I dont think it's supposed to be scary but i just know i'm going to be scared at some point after watching it ( Imagination overboard~) Maybe I'll make my brother watch it with me. haha

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Is told that the Juniors' orientation is on the 30th of July. I want to go~! Not that i have attachment anyways
I can't wait to find out who's coming to LP next year.
I hope I can get along with them well. >.<